New years eve holds no hope for me, I have never found it anything but sad . I used to think a magical change would happen at the stroke of twelve and that all things would be bright and new…… I no longer believe that and so this year I have put my thoughts here on the page for anyone to see.
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Hail Philosopher of the colours. A rainbow man no doubt, afresh the canvas waits for you to shade in light and dark .
The old and tired greys and purples of things best forgot will lurk in…

Why are relationships so hard to cope with? There is no knowing when that one word, that slightly wrong inflection will throw you unceremoniously in the black hole of pain. One look one harsh word and bang your day is finished and the pain sears right through you.
Loneliness is hiding in the shaow of every sunny day, it lurks in the flowers and hovers in every room.
I walked to town and back and the streets were empty the playing fields bereft of children, the beautiful manicured gardens of the houses road on road of emptiness not a soul…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ax84xcaLfHs

"The First Train Home" the first track on Ellipse and the new single is a really beautiful but sad song. I know it is only my personal opinion but I see it as a woman who finds herself in a sad and doomed relationship. She feels if she can just run and can but only get home all will be well with the world.She see the first train home as her escape and her solution to all her problems
It sounds like her her relationship has run it's length, she asks her partner what does it matter that he…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pR_heGRfwe0

Bad Body Double………… well we all have one of those! She pops into the shower uses all your make up, poses and preens in the mirror . She holds her breath to make her thinner yes we all have a bad body double.

She even follows you to the gym she looks odd in the sports wear heavier on the hips than you and she has gray hairs not to mention the dimples in her thighs …she will never get rid of them…………

You go to a bar or a job interview and you are fine until you see…

Well this not new and probably has been done before ..but it should be fun and interesting . It is based on the Dessert Island Discs radio programme. Right the rules are you are cast away on this island..you have to provide yourself with a shelter and find food to live on!! But the big plus in our version is that you have a truly magic and unbreakable ipod with batteries that will never run down or degrade.
All you have to do now is list the tracks you would like to have on this ipod..OH!! by the way you…

Jimmy Nail born James Michael Aloysius Bradford in Benton, Newcastle upon Tyne,is a big talent.
He has starred in several TV series and films and also co wrote one of the TV series Spender which ran over here for three series 1990-1903. His first big part was in Auf Wiedersehen Pet in which he played a rebellious Newcastle Builder working with his mates on a building site in Germany!BTW that is English they are speaking in this clip..it is a northern dialect called Gordie !!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XgarXnV_-Fk
He next came to light in Spender the show he co wrote and in…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pSIbfzK2spg

Just for now
Just for now
Just for now

It's that time of year
Leave all our hopelessness's aside
If just for now (just for now) leave awhile
tears stop right here
I know we've all had a bumpy ride.I'm secretly on your side

Translation:= 12 months of the year we look forward to this..Christmas/ holidays for my American friends! Yes the hype starts at the end of August and we all agree to meet up as it will be so lovely…yer right! ..why in all sense would it?

How did you know?
It's what I always wanted
Could…

http://files.myopera.com/zenya/blog/1God%20watching.gifAlanis Morisette

Alanis Morissette sings my life for me. But this song from the film Dogma displays our entire worlds troubles and our meagre triumphants. Listen to her before it is too late!

Still

I am the harm which you inflict.
I am your brilliance and frustration.
I'm the nuclear bombs if they're to hit.
I am your immaturity and your indignance.
I am your misfits and your praised.
I am your doubt and your conviction.
I am your charity and your rape.
I am your grasping and expectation.

I see you averting your glances.
I see you cheering…

Carly SimonLike a River
Dear mother the struggle is over now
And your house is up for sale
We divided your railway watches
Between the four of us
I fought over the pearls
With the other girls
But it was all a metaphor
For what was wrong with us
As the room is emptying out
Your face so young comes into view
And on the back porch is a well-worn step
And a pool of light you can walk into

I'll wait no more for you like a daughter,
That part of our life together is over
But I…

Boredom is a hard thing to live with, as are stress and loneliness. They are all related, they are all mean and nasty but if you try they can be controlled.
Thanks to the invention of the Ipod and Nano there is some hope for all of us who need the occasional lifting of the spirits!
The walk to and from work can be shortened and brightened up by Bjork sorting her Constellations, Climbing her mouth's cradle or Unravelling Human Behaviour! Any argument or row can forgotten with Coldplay who will Fix You or Enya will turn the skies Caribbean…